Eyes on Me

As of now, I am aware that I have approximately two and a half hours to greet you a very happy mother's day. I am also aware that I am a crammer and I know that you know that already. So here it goes...

I want you to know that I intentionally did not greet you the whole day. I want this day to end the happy way. I want this day to end my way. HAHA.

Today was the most fulfilling day of my life because I got the chance to stand as a guardian to approximately 32 children. Yes, Nay, you read that right, 32.

Everything that I did today reminded me of the things you've done for me. I taught them to draw. I thank you Nay for pacifying all my imaginations and letting me reveal it through my drawings. I thank you for buying me not just an eight set of crayons but 24. I thank you for fulfilling all my requests; for keeping my passions alive; for letting me live in a daydream; for letting me walk in a picture perfect life.

I thank you for letting me live a life filled with surprises. I thank you for letting me wake up in a birthday with a gift already beside me.

I thank you, for you never failed to read a good book for me during the night. Even though most of the time I leave you as the story continues its course inside my dreams. I thank you for leaving me alone in the bookstore as you laugh at me because I'm reading the book the wrong way. I thank you because you were able to drop me at the library and let me choose my favorite book. I thank you, because without you I cannot imagine myself being so interested in the course of learning.

I thank you because you know me more than I know myself.

I know that every parent is afraid of the monster within their children, because that same monster exists within themselves. I thank you because, at least in one way or another, you tamed my  monster down; that's how strong you are.

I thank you for staying single for eighteen years. I thank you for believing in true love; for trusting on the idea that Tatay is your one and only. 

I thank you for loving me more than you love yourself. I may not be the perfect daughter; I may not handle your work money well; I may be ranting all the time; but believe me Nay, it may not be that obvious, I'm trying to be a better person everyday because of you.

Thank you for accepting each and everything that I do (that I've done; that includes my vices). Thank you for the endless patience and forgiveness that only an omnipotent being could do. I thank you for being the living proof of His omnipotence. The only reason that makes me believe that He exists is having you in the first place.

Many may question the degree on how I love you because they know that I am hard-headed/ hard to handle. But I know that you're the only one who knows how to handle me the right way. Thank you, Nay.

I love you, in behalf of Tatay and well, myself, again Happy Mother's Day! :*